Lately, found out that my life have been like a roller coaster ride. Guess, it's pretty normal as we grow older yr by yr. In fact, at times i look back at myself and i hear comments from closed ones of mine, what kind of person I am? Or I shld say, how do I appear to be as in front of them....


Well, I guess all of us like to hear gd comments on ourself. Here is wat I hear from others on me..
- I am too innocent. Cos I trust ppl too easily. I dun guard myself, cos I always assume that those ppl are harmless.

- I have a kind heart. Cos I think for others, more than thinking for myself. I dun wish to hurt others, so I rather take all the blame. I hide my tots cos I dun wish to add burden to others, dun wish to add trouble to others.

- I dun seems to have temper. Cos no matter how my friends tease me, criticise me, give me sarcastic remarks, I can simply just accept it and dun seems to be angry. Even if my friend say, "u numb liao izzit? u r a "Bar Soh' ar? Y no feeling de huh?.." Or for eg. saying, " Are u angry if we tease u? If my answers are, no lah, It's ok, I won't take it to heart.. My friends will say, " U think we care even if u are angry??" Hahahahah... In fact, it just bring laughter to me, and not anger.. At times also dunno how come.. Guess I am numb, did someone block my anger acupoints??.. Oops!!

- I am very easy going. Asking me for views, asking me if it's ok, my answers are always, "it's ok for me', ' I am really ok with that suyggestions', "It's ok de..."

- I am sociable, friendly.. Meeting new friends, having new colleagues, I can easily get along with them easily...


However, not all ppl have gd comments. Cos if a person lived till his or her age with only gd points, that person will nv grow, will nv improve... Here are some bad comments on me.
- I am a slow coach. 'Ms Mo'.. I tends to drag my time. Whenever meeting my friends, I tends to be slow. And drag for abt 5 to 10mins, then I set off.

- I am a faker. Hmmm it seems very familiar to u readers right? Cos someone left this comment in my previous posting, 'the right one'. In fact, y do I have ppl saying that. Cos it got to do with my gd points. Being kind, being a person with no temper, doesn't mean it's gd. When I hurt someone, ppl will feel that I have being acting to be nice all along, I am just plainly acting. I am just a very gd actress. That's y, I am being called a faker in some ppls point of views.

- I can make ppl feel frustrated over with the way I handle things. For eg, I pour out all my woes, my unhappiness to my closed ones, wanting a listening ear. When my closed one, come in to lend a helping hand, I mess things up, or I tried to do the things by myself.. It makes others feel that, 'Are they being too kaypoh? Poking their nose into my problems?"

- I am stupid. Cos I trust ppl easily, bringing harm and hurt to myself..

- I am being silly.

I have ppl telling me this. 對別人仁慈，就是對自己殘忍。。。I can't always be an angel, cos it will not always bring gd to me. But it's my nature, I am like that. I am someone that dun wish to hurt others, dun wish to bring unhappiness. Guess cos I know the feeling of being hurt by others, so I dun wish to hurt others bah.. Guess that's y I am being called silly, stupid.. I just wan peace. A peaceful life, that's wat I wish for.