Went for a business trip to Batam on 21st Nite and back on 23rd Nov afternoon. Guess this trip came at the right timing, for me to set my tots over the problems that I am facing right now.

When I am back to SG on 23rd Nov, I met Ter for dinner. Over the dinner, we have a peaceful dinner. And it caught me by surprise that he read my entry. I don't know if he got read all, but he just told me that, hmmm dun anyhow think. And added that, "Why are u writing all these in ur blog? U think it's very nice to let ppl read?"

Yesterday I have a chat with him over the phone. I dun care if you read this entry or not. I wan to tell u, this is my blog, I have my rights to put down wat I wan to write. It's my feel, my tots.. I felt that I have nothing to hide. And in the previous entry, I dun see A SHAME in putting my tots in my own blog. I dun see any reason y shld u feel offended. Thanks for Almo, rinko and D for putting down ur comments. I know u all care for me and him. Want me to cheer up. After reading D's comments, the more I wanted to write my tots. Cos I feel better writing it down here. There's nothing to hide. Moreover, we lived in an open minded world. It's ok to write our feels and tots. And that's where a blog come in. Furthermore, it's my rights. We live for ourselves.

So I dun see a need for you to over reacted, if only there's something that you think I can't or shouldn't write. There is nothing to be shameful about. Unless, you feel that all these things that I input, shouldn't let readers know. Anyway, most of the readers are ppl that are close to us. Without writing, they already can see from their own eyes. SO with my inputting into this blog, I really dun see a reason, y u need to over reacted.

There are times when one gets down, need to write down what they feel. I hope you can understand how I feel...

All along, I have been inputting Happy entries.. My happy life, the side of my life that is happy... Recently, i started to input some entries that are not so happy.. I know it dun fits in the bill of my Blog Title "Enjoy the Happinest Moments in Our Life.." Maybe ppl out there, ppl who read my blog think i am a happy go lucky gal. Yeah I am,and I really wanted to. But this period of time, I am not so so happy le.

Started to write unhappy entries, on the death of my friend, a existing problem between my parents and Terence. I guess it's a downhill for me at this stage of my life. Thinking that after ROM, things will turn out to be better. Get my parents recognition. Just wanted so much to tell Terence that, it's not that my parents objected us. If they object our r/s, they wouldn't agree us to ROM. Just that I have always being so rebellious, before ROM, I have always stay over ur place in weekend. It comes to a point, it's a must, it's a sure for everyone. Everyone, in ur family, my parents or my family or friends or ppl that know us. Once there are objections, ppl tends to think why why why.. Ppl dun understand y.. But I do understand. Cos to them, they feel that y is it a must to stay. My sis nv do that, so they expect me to follow. Under the eyes of the law, it also nv say that once ROM, must stay with each other. If before my ROM, i didn't constantly being rebellious, maybe right now things will be easier.

In this world, you can never hold both ends. PPl tends to be greedy, take things for granted. Baby, I know you will nv read my blog. You find that it's a waste of time. It's nonsense. But then it's ok. Cos this blog is for me to write my tots. Even no one reads it, I can't be bothered too. Everything takes 2 hands to clap. If it's only me that have been trying hard to solve things out, then things will not be able to settle. I know ur sisters will be reading this entry sooner or later, maybe they might urge u to read. But then just wanna tell San & Ade, there is no need to do that. If he wants, he feel that he wan to know more abt me, my tots, my feels, he will read it himself.

Outsiders see that we are a happy, sweet couple. Yes we are. We have been. But recently, we gave ppl the image that we are not a couple le. A friend, more like it. I dun care what ppl say, how ppl think. Wat I care is how u feel about this marriage? There are a few times, i asked you. Izzit you think we ROM too early? You brushed it off, saying no la.. Dun anyhow think. If I know after ROM, things will turn this way, I rather not ROM. REALLY. Dun have hard feelings for readers that see this. I mean, if ROM makes our r/s turn worst, I rather not get married. At least, we can still stay happy like last time. No worries. It come to a point where I really drag seeing ppl ROM. My friend, just got ROM. Know what, she married cos to get flats. My colleague, getting custom. I couldnt help it, but kept asking him, i think 3 times.. Are you sure you wanna marry so early? As a guy, he is only 25yrs old. Why wan to commit himself to a marriage so early.. He answered me, cos my wife wants.. Hearing that answer, I really dunno wat to say further. Just kept thinking of me and U..

Part of the reason why we ROM, I guess u know deep down in your heart y right. It's the same reason, FLATS FLATS FLATS... Now I think back, what is so impt about getting flats now. It's not the crucial point that we need a flat. Maybe you wanted so much to give me a status. U tot after this status as MRS SEOW, my parents will not give me trouble. But then a status is not impt to me at all, what I care more is happiness. I rather have a happy r/s as a gf than having a status, if I know things will turn sour now.

I have been strong all this while. ALot of things I kept to myself. I wished I can be strong again. I wished I can endure all this again. But seems like, this time round, it's really a downhill for me, for my life...

On 8th Nov 07, there is another new married couple. That's my ex col in JCS getting married. Hmmm, it's actually quite a short r/s of her and her hubby, not yet 1yr, but then due to her hubby wants to ROM, she is ok with it. When we reached there, saw the newly wed couple, feel so happy for her. Really hope that she can be xin fu, cos it's not easy to be married to someone that is from another country of hers.

Some photos taken when we are there....


'We close friends with 'Bride & Groom'.."


" Pretty SIA stewardress.. LYNN :P "


" Me and my dearly *mama* (ms Chia)..always been so protective to me.."


" Me & Chia again.."


" Me, Ben & Chia.. (2 of us are so dearly to our *mama*).. This photo is a memory.. Yeah.."

Left my friend's ROM at 9plus, and we are still hungry.. Cos her buffet was not enough, therefore we headed to Changi Village to grab some food. Chatted there, and left at 10 plus with Ben being the chauffeur, driving all the gals home.. Haaahaa ...:P

Last weekend, mummy called me. It's a late Saturday night call from her. Was actually with Ter and my in laws at Geylang having supper. Was on the line with mummy.. She says, "Daddy is not in his mood. Throwing tantrums again, and asking u to go home early the next day for dinner. Dun always stay over at his place, Daddy is getting mad..." When I heard this, I really feel so much like crying. But kept silent and did not tell Ter immediately. Doesn't wan to spoil his mood.

We went to Mount Faber Safra to have a game of bowling with him and my FIL. Nice game. And went we are on the way home, walking to the lorry, I told Ter that I got to be home the next day for dinner. Daddy is not in his mood and wants me to be home early. Ter sounded unhappy, but still he asked me to go home early. He added that, he dun understand what Daddy is thinking. Sounded unhappy. :( The next day, I left his hse. Really didn't plan to leave early. Wanted to spend time with him. Wanted to see Baby Jayden. But then I doesn't want Daddy to be angry, so I went home. Still remember Ter say that, " I thought Sunday can spend time..." Feel so upset and bad when I heard him say that. Sorry..

Reached home, see Daddy and Mummy. Ate dinner as usual. The next day, my SIL msn me and asked me what happen. Told her, and she commented that she doesn't understand wat my parents are thinking. Furthermore we have ROM. Just wanted to say that they are my parents. They wanted to see me at home during weekends. Baby, I know we have ROM. I know by law, we are husband and wife. But to my parents, or my family, they seems not really being able to accept it. To them, we are still young. At times, really feel so stucked. Wanted to spend time with you, yet cos my parents, somehow, I have to try to please them.

Today, before Ter came for dinner. While showering, Mummy asked me not to stay over this weekend. :( Argued with her. She say it's ur Daddy, grumbling. She even commented that cos I every Sat night was not at home. SiGHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh.. I told her, before ROM I am like that, now after ROM, I am also like that. WHY? WHY? WHY? Isn't it after ROM, things will be easier. Isn't it after ROM, things will look better??? Mummy say, Before ROM, u started to stay out of hse on Sat, now after ROM also, how can I do that???? I was really very puzzled.. I told her, I have already ROM, just spending time with Ter. And Ter's family are asking y can't I.. Mummy asked me to tell Ter cos it's Daddy...

When Ter came, I didn't tell him. See that he is in his good mood. Really doesn't wan to tell him. I afraid to spoil him mood. Tomorrow, I will tell him. I have to. But I tell myself, when Ter is back every weekend of his reservice, no matter wat I will stay over on Sat night... SIGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHHG.. Really so so vexed... But no one really can understand how I feel. No one can....:(