Time really flies, it's reaching the month of June 08. These few mths, many things happen in my life. Be it happy or sad, they have gone with the tides.. My mood have regained it's serenity and back to the Old me. Hahaha.

Hey, closed friends of mine out there, thanks for being there for me till now. No matter wat happen, or how badly the situation is, U guys have been supporting me. I apologised for the lately issues. U guys know wat I mean ya. Wat have been done, we can't undo it. But I believe in preventing more things from happening, so I have done some changes to my blog. If u guys notice. HAHA.

What have been put up in my blog way back, are my memories. Be it happy or sad. I have ever tot, why not just delete this whole blog of mine? But when I am thinking straight, I tot, Y shld I? Cos memories are meant to be kept. Time have always been moving forward, so do we. Wat is in the past, have gone but kept in our heart & mind.

Yesterday was chatting with my soulmate. She told me, "hey this world there is no such thing as eternity u know?" Only FAMILY will be there with u, no matter what will happen. It's true. No matter how bad one person become, family members will still be there to support u. My family, they have always been there for me, although I dun always mention them in my blog. Cos they are kept in my heart.

I suppose I have done my part in wat I shld do in the previous entry. I dun bother wat others think of me, cos they are not me. Not knowing my intention, I dun blame anyone. Cos one dun always expect everyone to know his or her intention when one have done something. Someone tell me this, when she knows I am not thinking straight, "Ur heart is conscious, U know u have done nothing wrong, so y bother how ppl think of u?" HAHAHAHA. Hey, ur water come into gd use. Hopefully, u have not used all of them up hor.. Thanks ;)

Wanna say sorry to someone that I have thrown some tantrums the past few days. I dun mean it ya. Just cos I am feeling very vexed. I did it unknowingly. Thanks for ur understanding. And glad that we are able to clear the air yesterday. CHEERS :)

Arrrrrrrrrghghghghghghghghghgh!!!!! Someone pls help me.. I can't take it anymore. Y?? Y?? Y can't u just leave me alone??? Y must u kept coming back repeatedly? Does my msg to u, does putting my tots in my blog, asking u to leave me alone, sound like 'alien' words to u??? Are my words really so difficult to understand? I really doubt so. U promise to leave me alone. But did u?? U came back again, within a week later.

I really dunno how long i can go on with this game with u. My white flag have long been up in the sky. I am really sick and tired of all these. Telling u that I have started a new r/s, I really hope u will know wat to do next. But have u done what a guy shld do? No, not at all. U send me msg early in the morning today again. Are all the words that I talked to u over the phone seems transparent? Or am I talking Arabian language? Words that just dun seems to make u understand wat I mean. I really got no choice, but to write my tots in here. I am really damn 'Fucking' piss with u, with myself. Initally, I tot we can still be friends, but the things u do, the actions u do, really piss me off. If u wanna continue all these nonsense, I can tell u, U will nv get near me again. No point being friends with u again, if u are to continue soaking urself in that saddness. If u are to continue hoping we will get back, I can tell u, the more u do all these, the more i wanna run away from u. And to be more straight to the point, if i still wanna give u a chance, then for fuck I initate to annull and go thru all the legal preparations all by myself? U think I got nothing better to do izzit?? U think it's fun? Wat is over, is already over! Wat is in the past, have already gone with the wind!

Can u pls wake up ur senses? WAKE UP!!!! Think for ur family b4 doing all these. Think for the ppl ard u that loves u. U think they are happy to see u doing all these????? U always say they dun understand u. Then if u nv open ur mouth, u think they will know wat u think? All u wants is to hope that ur family ppl appreciate on the little things u do, little changes that u made. WAKE UP! U are no longer a small kid that needs care and love by ur parents. U shld in fact be giving them care and love. No one owe u anything. So stop giving that fucking attitude to ur loved ones!! U shld be mature enough!

Stop using lance as an excuse. Pls I beg u. He is just a dog, my precious dog.. He dunno a thing at all. Pls dun use him as a tool. Pls.. Pls.. If u persist again and again, I can tell u, and guarantee that u will not be able to see me again in ur life!!!!!!!!!! Dun push me further. I am warning u, dun test me, nv ever test me.

Currently, I am watching this Korean Drama.狗狼之时.. Nice show, action movie and the best part is they have quite alot of scene acted in BK. Kekeke, a place that I long to go always. For a short trip is better than nothing, as BK is so relaxing.

Here is a short MV to share with u guys. Enjoy.. ;)

Lately, found out that my life have been like a roller coaster ride. Guess, it's pretty normal as we grow older yr by yr. In fact, at times i look back at myself and i hear comments from closed ones of mine, what kind of person I am? Or I shld say, how do I appear to be as in front of them....


Well, I guess all of us like to hear gd comments on ourself. Here is wat I hear from others on me..
- I am too innocent. Cos I trust ppl too easily. I dun guard myself, cos I always assume that those ppl are harmless.

- I have a kind heart. Cos I think for others, more than thinking for myself. I dun wish to hurt others, so I rather take all the blame. I hide my tots cos I dun wish to add burden to others, dun wish to add trouble to others.

- I dun seems to have temper. Cos no matter how my friends tease me, criticise me, give me sarcastic remarks, I can simply just accept it and dun seems to be angry. Even if my friend say, "u numb liao izzit? u r a "Bar Soh' ar? Y no feeling de huh?.." Or for eg. saying, " Are u angry if we tease u? If my answers are, no lah, It's ok, I won't take it to heart.. My friends will say, " U think we care even if u are angry??" Hahahahah... In fact, it just bring laughter to me, and not anger.. At times also dunno how come.. Guess I am numb, did someone block my anger acupoints??.. Oops!!

- I am very easy going. Asking me for views, asking me if it's ok, my answers are always, "it's ok for me', ' I am really ok with that suyggestions', "It's ok de..."

- I am sociable, friendly.. Meeting new friends, having new colleagues, I can easily get along with them easily...


However, not all ppl have gd comments. Cos if a person lived till his or her age with only gd points, that person will nv grow, will nv improve... Here are some bad comments on me.
- I am a slow coach. 'Ms Mo'.. I tends to drag my time. Whenever meeting my friends, I tends to be slow. And drag for abt 5 to 10mins, then I set off.

- I am a faker. Hmmm it seems very familiar to u readers right? Cos someone left this comment in my previous posting, 'the right one'. In fact, y do I have ppl saying that. Cos it got to do with my gd points. Being kind, being a person with no temper, doesn't mean it's gd. When I hurt someone, ppl will feel that I have being acting to be nice all along, I am just plainly acting. I am just a very gd actress. That's y, I am being called a faker in some ppls point of views.

- I can make ppl feel frustrated over with the way I handle things. For eg, I pour out all my woes, my unhappiness to my closed ones, wanting a listening ear. When my closed one, come in to lend a helping hand, I mess things up, or I tried to do the things by myself.. It makes others feel that, 'Are they being too kaypoh? Poking their nose into my problems?"

- I am stupid. Cos I trust ppl easily, bringing harm and hurt to myself..

- I am being silly.

I have ppl telling me this. 對別人仁慈，就是對自己殘忍。。。I can't always be an angel, cos it will not always bring gd to me. But it's my nature, I am like that. I am someone that dun wish to hurt others, dun wish to bring unhappiness. Guess cos I know the feeling of being hurt by others, so I dun wish to hurt others bah.. Guess that's y I am being called silly, stupid.. I just wan peace. A peaceful life, that's wat I wish for.