Recently, this period of time, my life have been ups and downs. With the friends, my pals, my buddies, and my soulmate around me all having the same kind of problems that they need to face, including me. Nv nv know that all the close buddies of mine are having the same problems.

My buddy, X, just go separate ways with his gf just a week plus after mine problem. Sigh, in fact, we have been there supporting one another all this while. Encouraging one another to be strong, to move on, to even enjoy wat we have now. Have in fact meet up X 2 times for dinner. Share my problems and his. It's quite similar. Nv know we chose the same route at ard the same timing. I know it's easier said than done. It's only when one go thru wat the other have been thru, he or she will fully understand. X, find one day, we come out for drinks again. Haha, i know ur Martel is at home waiting for me. HAhahaha.

My pal, J, recently met up his ex gf.. Gave her Xmas present. He is so delighted, so as his ex. But he knows it's difficult for them to be together, since her ex decided another. Parted ways for 6mths, but still his love for her is always there. J have been supporting me all this while, cos he really understand how I will feel. He told me, it really need to take a yr to have my wound healed. And for probably another 1 mth, if I get to hear familiar love songs, I would still teared. True enough, I did. That's y, I tried not to listen to songs while working. Ooopss!! He kept telling me, not to care wat others say, what other thinks, and dun even bother to explain to them. Cos the more I explain, it's just a waste of my own time and energy. Yup, I tell myself, I will not do that again. Sorry to make u, vomit blood.. hahah..

My SQ gal, L, recently having her problems with her current BF. Told me, she's just waiting for the right time to break the news to him. Being swallowing her 'wei qu' for these past 2 yrs. Think it's 2 weeks ago, L, B and me met up for drinks. We 3 pals. Then she told us abt her story. It really caught us a surprise. L kept asking B, wat's wrong with his r/s. Sigh, guess guys like to hide their problems. Not willingly to share much. B have to be more open up la.. I totally agree with wat L say, no matter how well the guy treats u, when the guy doesn't appreciate ur doings, ur love for him, it will nv be able to cover the saddness and hurt that u are suffering all these yrs. Nevertheless, I really wanted to thank her and B, for being there for me. Only the 2 of u saw wat had happen to me. Really thanks for being there with me and sent me home.

My soulmate, E, god have really been nice to us all these while. It's fate that brought us together and know one another. Having the same views, the same tots. Even on r/s, we met obstacles at the same time. But always either one of us will get up on our feet first, and support the other one. When I am down, u r strong. U have been there for me. Hearing my woes, accompanying me all this while. I will nv nv forget. We have always tell one another, our problems always happen ard the same timing. When mine came, urs came abt 4-5 days later. Nv know that it can turn out to be this way, we can't have lunch together, like how we always do. Really missed those days.. :( But we can always meet up for dinner. Like yesterday, we met up. Haha, shopping ard, having dinner.. Like wat u say, dinner is better. hahaha, 'Rubberband' time mah.. Right now, I am getting back on my feet, supporting u. I know u need my help. I will be the wall to support u right now. Remember, to get back to ur feet fast, cos there will sure be a time when I am down again.. Ger, let's move on with our life..

Wanna tell D & R that I really feel so blessed to have the 2 of u out there supporting me mentally and emotionally. R alwasy msn me in the morning. If I am not online, will msg me and asked how am I . How are things going on?? I am fine, real fine. Dun worry. U have been there for me, understand me all these yrs. Wow, think of it, we have been great friends for 10yrs. Wow.. We are getting old le.. Kekeke..

We shall move on together. Love u guys.. Really thanks.. Muacks..

This could be my last entry for the guy that I love. No one will understand why I make this decision. I guess only you know it best, although I know it's hard for you to accept it. I know ppl out there that care for you, will hate me. I know that they dun understand. Why I love you, yet I wanna make such decision. I know u or they will think that, when u have a job, striving hard, and meeting so many obstacles in ur life, yet at this point of time, I gave u a hard kick. But always remember this, if you dun fall hard, u won't strive harder, u won't be stronger. Loving you, been able to be with you these yrs, I will always remember in my heart. No matter how our future will be, no matter who you will be with in future, I really wanna give you my upmost blessing.

Seeing that my link is removed from your loved ones, I know they really hate me. But like u told me, "Once a wife, always a wife". And I told u the same, "Once a husband, always a husband". Without me, you will grow even stronger. I have faith in you. Like wat you say, although we may not be an item, but we can always look for one another, if we need a listening ear. I have nv regretted loving you even till now. Hope that ur life will be better and better. I will always keep you deep in my heart. Maybe this life, we are not fated to be together. We will move on with our life now. Maybe in our next life, we will meet again.

Here is a video for you. All the words that I wanna tell you are in this song with its lyrics.Always take gd care of urself.Luv urself more, so that you will know how to give ur love to others. I wish you all the best, and cherish your loved ones, and most importantly learnt to love and appreciate the future girl that you will be with. Bless you with good health. Take good care of urself. Your loved ones will always be there supporting you. :) Gam Ba tei!!!

http://www.mmxxdd.com/mxd/video/2007-08/18/video_detail_10817.html