"I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on"

The above 3 verse really matches how I feel now. I really dunno why my life is a mess. A total mess. A decision that can makes my life a topsy-turvy now. I just wan to have a peaceful life. Please let me go. Be a man, let me go!!!!

After a few mths, I find myself still under ur shadow. I tot I can move on easily. But you have came back repeatedly. I find myself still trapped in the past. I can't get myself out. I hope there is a life buoy out there saving me out of this past. I dunno when u read this, will u get wat I mean. But just hope that u can treat me just as a normal friend.

No point thinking of the past. I know u kept saying u r not. But I wanna tell u, ur actions dun match ur words. Dun send me msgs telling me that u can be or could be or might be my right partner. If u r, I wouldn't ask u to change to wat I want. Till now, u still dun get it!! If u mean well, let me go! Y hang on??? Y???

Maybe closed ones of urs, might feel offended seeing me writing it down in my blog. But it's just bottling in my heart, in my chest for a long time. I just dun wan closed ones ard us, get into this mess too. From the past till now, till today, closed ones ard us are being drag into this. I really wanna apologised to all of those who are out there to help us, or help me alone.

I know I shld be responsible for whatever decision I make. I shld know wat are the upcoming consequences in whatever decision I make. Many times I feel that I give u an inch, u want a yard! So please, get on ur life, think for urself, and not cos of me, u r fighting hard.. No point doing all these, it's too late. Just too late...... Let me go!!!!