All along, I have been inputting Happy entries.. My happy life, the side of my life that is happy... Recently, i started to input some entries that are not so happy.. I know it dun fits in the bill of my Blog Title "Enjoy the Happinest Moments in Our Life.." Maybe ppl out there, ppl who read my blog think i am a happy go lucky gal. Yeah I am,and I really wanted to. But this period of time, I am not so so happy le.

Started to write unhappy entries, on the death of my friend, a existing problem between my parents and Terence. I guess it's a downhill for me at this stage of my life. Thinking that after ROM, things will turn out to be better. Get my parents recognition. Just wanted so much to tell Terence that, it's not that my parents objected us. If they object our r/s, they wouldn't agree us to ROM. Just that I have always being so rebellious, before ROM, I have always stay over ur place in weekend. It comes to a point, it's a must, it's a sure for everyone. Everyone, in ur family, my parents or my family or friends or ppl that know us. Once there are objections, ppl tends to think why why why.. Ppl dun understand y.. But I do understand. Cos to them, they feel that y is it a must to stay. My sis nv do that, so they expect me to follow. Under the eyes of the law, it also nv say that once ROM, must stay with each other. If before my ROM, i didn't constantly being rebellious, maybe right now things will be easier.

In this world, you can never hold both ends. PPl tends to be greedy, take things for granted. Baby, I know you will nv read my blog. You find that it's a waste of time. It's nonsense. But then it's ok. Cos this blog is for me to write my tots. Even no one reads it, I can't be bothered too. Everything takes 2 hands to clap. If it's only me that have been trying hard to solve things out, then things will not be able to settle. I know ur sisters will be reading this entry sooner or later, maybe they might urge u to read. But then just wanna tell San & Ade, there is no need to do that. If he wants, he feel that he wan to know more abt me, my tots, my feels, he will read it himself.

Outsiders see that we are a happy, sweet couple. Yes we are. We have been. But recently, we gave ppl the image that we are not a couple le. A friend, more like it. I dun care what ppl say, how ppl think. Wat I care is how u feel about this marriage? There are a few times, i asked you. Izzit you think we ROM too early? You brushed it off, saying no la.. Dun anyhow think. If I know after ROM, things will turn this way, I rather not ROM. REALLY. Dun have hard feelings for readers that see this. I mean, if ROM makes our r/s turn worst, I rather not get married. At least, we can still stay happy like last time. No worries. It come to a point where I really drag seeing ppl ROM. My friend, just got ROM. Know what, she married cos to get flats. My colleague, getting custom. I couldnt help it, but kept asking him, i think 3 times.. Are you sure you wanna marry so early? As a guy, he is only 25yrs old. Why wan to commit himself to a marriage so early.. He answered me, cos my wife wants.. Hearing that answer, I really dunno wat to say further. Just kept thinking of me and U..

Part of the reason why we ROM, I guess u know deep down in your heart y right. It's the same reason, FLATS FLATS FLATS... Now I think back, what is so impt about getting flats now. It's not the crucial point that we need a flat. Maybe you wanted so much to give me a status. U tot after this status as MRS SEOW, my parents will not give me trouble. But then a status is not impt to me at all, what I care more is happiness. I rather have a happy r/s as a gf than having a status, if I know things will turn sour now.

I have been strong all this while. ALot of things I kept to myself. I wished I can be strong again. I wished I can endure all this again. But seems like, this time round, it's really a downhill for me, for my life...